I blog again :)
I haven't blogged for quite some
time. First I glorify the Almighty God our Blessed Holy Trinity for
his abundant mercy towards me!! Glory be to the Father, The Son and
The Holy Spirit! Now and forever and ever! Amen. I start with this
loud words and I have so many things to say. But yes yesterday a
joyful news came to me it seems my Exemption letter for Internship
has been Approved! I prayed to God that he make them approve this
exemption letter because I want to graduate asap and go back to
Bulgaria. Here in the Netherlands I feel really terrible, the
spiritual state of the country is simply softly said terrible, even
though they seem to be an advanced country from the tangible aspect
of the things from the intangible/spiritually poor. Not to say that
I feel like the devil is controlling most of their lives already.
The complete mix of negroes, chinese, indonesians and all other
type of races makes the country mixed. Here in the air it feels
like a spirits of gluttony are crawling around all the time, also
quite often I feel like madness crossing around the air. Sometimes
I have that strange thoughts in my mind that something is really
wrong with that country. Maybe I had a nice point about that. This
SHR project is getting schizophrenic, anyways glory be to God for
his abundant mercy towards me and sustaining me always. Yesterday
was a terrible day I felt so confused such a profound spiritual
sorrow was rulling me that I can hardly bear it, I had a couple of
terrible days this days. Since some time I am suspecting there is
something wrong here, everytime I have classes with most of the
teachers here I feel terrible afterwards and I usually need a
couple of days to recover to some sane state. In their presence I
experience profound spiritual sorrow and suffering, I've been in a
similar spiritual states before and I know that this simply can be
described in the biblical word hell. Since some time I suspect
something is wrong with this guys (I mean the tachers), a couple of
days Mr. Joop Vinke the guy who seems to be like a dean to us
mentioned during some of the theater sports answered my question
where have been yesterday "to the rotary club" and then he added
like every other day before, it was not clear is he mean it or not.
My suspects became even stronger, because I know that one of my
employers used to be attending rotary club as well I know some
really terrible things happened in his life and I think he quit
that club, anyways. Last week on Friday I met one of my other
teachers (Mr. Da Ponte) and I spoke with him, the conversation
flowed as he mentioned something about the Lord making the sun
circle around the earth, I was interested by his statement so asked
him if he believes in God and if he is a roman catholic. He said he
is not roman catholic and then what followed was a sort of preach
about what he believes and his God as I continusly asked him
questions. From his description I left with the impression that he
is probably believing in the same God of the masonry (I've red
about that just a couple of days before). So many things matched,
the teacher even mentioned that a lot of teachers in that school
are also believing in God and I was left with the impression that
he meant the same God as he believes, so I make the connection that
they are probably rotarians, masons or taking participation in some
sort of organization like that which has to deal pretty much with
the occult. A couple of days before I spoke with a brother in
Christ (Stelian) and I explained him what is happening and about
this BHC (business ethics classes), I explained him how much they
want you to accept what they say and if you don't you are not
worthy, I also explained to Stelio the whole story and how this
guys are able to make you feel really bad. Since this guys tried to
teach us their methods and I tried a couple of times their methods
and saw the effect how by doing "something" "unconsciously" you can
alter the other into a state of broken spiritness and terrible
suffering while at the same time you feel overflowed with joy, a
sort of stealing his living power or Angels so to say. I don't want
to enter into details about that since its to me surely related
with demonic manifestation. I've also remembered that one of the
guest lecturers that Mr. Vinke has brought here mentioned that he
is rotarian, the coincidences started becoming too much seriously.
I also spoke with a student who has graduated and I asked him if he
feels that bad thing inside of him, I was stunned when he
confirmed. Also in that SHR project it really is schizophrenic I
feel that spiritually something really wrong is happening there I
started thinking and I could recognize many of the things done in
classes of Mr. Vinke has to deal with the paranormal even though
not openly showed, even his theater sports has a lot of unconscious
spiritism involved, not to mention his Werewolf games including
vampires, whitches etc. a lot of the theater sport games include
games which include things with dying, you play dead etc., etc. I
also have noticed that teachers often are pointing me and saying
that I'm not changing, many of the students here are changing
seriously for bad. I know by my saviour Jesus Christ who said "by
their fruits you will know them", seeing their fruit suffering,
confusion, hate, lies etc. I started being more and more convinced
that this guys are dealing with the devil. So if my theory is right
and I think it probably is, most of the teachers are members of the
rotary club. Maybe they even see it as harmless way to improve
their business contacts but I know this is not the case, and this
guys are giving oaths, having their strange believes spiritual
leaders and do worship the devil even though not openly. I shared
all that with a couple of my colleagues and many of them probably
just thought that I'm out of my mind. But the holy spirit in me
testified all that the things I am thinking are true. I've shared
what is happening with a brother in Christ (a priest) in the
orthodox Church Bulgaria and he said he is gonna mention my name on
the altar before God on the Divine Liturgies. I guess this matters
because today even though I am not completely okay I feel much
relieved and better and I feel God! Glory be to the Immortal and
Holy of Israel now and unto ages of ages. I try to learn the gospel
a bit early in the morning and a bit late at night before I go to
bed I also try to pray a bit each morning and evening and trust the
Lord to keep me and protect me from the schemes of the evil one!
Yesterday I was at Ina's place and tried to explain her that this
project we do now has something to deal with evil spiritism. I even
have suspected that this guys from the rotary club ask their
members to share information about certain people that the rotary
members work with and then try to bring some curses and spells if
they see somebody as a problem to their practices. I suspect that
this guys somehow use their members as a channels to spread their
evil spirituality. I've also taken the advice of Stelio to start
caring an Icon in me whenever I go to school. Quite often here and
especially in the dormitory I feel something is happening inside of
me, my heart starts beating unsteady I also feel spirits flying
around and trying sort of trying to conquer me this more or less
has to deal with their broken spirituality here. Often I feel
completely exhausted like somebody stealing my living power and
willingness. Also I have noticed that here in their discoteques,
they don't allow you to enter with a hat? My assumption is that
there are somethings placed in the discoteques which has to deal
with inducing thoughts in you. On saturday I and Sali entered into
a discoteque, I was not so willing so I've removed my hat I've
borrowed temporary from Sali. After being in the discoteque on the
day after and on Monday I had terrible headache and felt weak and
pretty much like almost dying, Also I felt something on my forehead
happening, just like I felt on a numerous times the Holy Spirit
annointance and the Lord's spiritual sign on my forehead, I've red
in revelation that the Antichrist is going to put something on
ppl's forehead and and their right hands I'm more and more starting
to think that this in some phase is already working, I've felt
aches on my right hand on a numerous occasions, here often Its like
I fight for my spiritual survivance. People around I see as they're
dead and just living to consume "limed tombs" as they are called in
the gospel. I know that all I've written here might seem like too
much of a conspiracy, however I'm pretty much sure that many of the
things I suppose are true to a certain high degree or even
completely.