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The meaning of life – Thoughts of a life meaning seeker

Monday, March 12th, 2007

what is the meaning of life thoughts on why we exist thoughts of life meaning seeker

Probably a lot of people like me search the exact meaning of life. I still can’t get it I really have no idea. I’m not happy with my life I’m honest. I want a better life I want fulfilment of what my mission here on earth is ( if there is … ofcourse ). At least I’m a happy person I know i have to dig in “God”, he may set my path and explain me. Probably he is explaining me everyday the bad think is I’m a bad listener, and since God is a spirit you know it’s hard to communicate with spirits.Hope something nice will happen in my life and it will clean my past. God I really need to know you in fulness .. I have to be cleansed by your word Oh Lord. It’s the 5th day since I haven’t smoked cigarettes and I think more and more about cigarettes, nomatter it is best to stop since I’m destroying the temple of God with the smoke. The day started normally we went to the chineese restaurant with Nomen and Plamen, ate spaghetti, talked about a lot of non-sense. Luckily today we had a free day from the college. In the morning I watched a film called “The Secret”, after that I worked on the servers for some time (moved some sites into newly setupped jailkit ). I’m deviated in later times a part of me says live your life full time as a hardcore metal fan other part of me says live in purity (it’s really terrible), a part of me wants the happiness of my previous mindless life baning heads pogo .. you know all the stuff, the other part of me concentretes on compassion and love.I hope the seed in me while receiving the Gospel was good planted and will give it’s fruits or …Time will show. I have a task for the College to make but the last days I’m terribly lazy, we had to make a nice presentation, selecting a topic from 9 topics the presentation should be connected with business economics in general. Right now I’m listening to the good old Metallica .. Metallica really rocks :]END—–