☩ Walking in Light with Christ – Faith, Computing, Diary

Today was a comparingly a nice day. Although my observations show me that my spiritual problems are pretty serious …I really don’t know how to manage them and the only thing I do is trust in the Lord Jesus that he had mercy on me the sinnerand fix that. Today we had International Labour Law class and we went through a ILLW case about a wrongfully preparedemployee agreement. The situation was that a company has conducted an agreement with a company which explicitly statedthat the extra time won’t be paid at the same time the contract had a clause saying that Collective Labour Agreement isapplicable. The contract was conducted for 1.5 y. The company was obliged to pay a higher sallary to the employee tocompensate the worked overtime via a higher sallary for the employee. However after the contract’s period of validityhas passed, the employee sued the company for not paying him the overtime work. He did bring the case to court becauseaccording to Collective Labour Agreement legislation overtime is always required to be paid, nomatter the case. Andsince in the contract has explicitly stated that Collective Labour Agreements rule apply to the employee’s consideringthe fact that the Collective Labour Agreement has a higher weight than the clauses of the contact the employee has won.OK let me stop here with school stuff and continue with a small examination of what has happened during the rest of the day.I went to my room K111 pretty much depressed with big internal pain and struggles. This days I’m badly suffering. I thinkmy soul is hurted a lot, on top of this I’m more and more starting to think that I have hearing problems as well asam having various health issues. My spirit is quite often pretty much broken. I have that feeling pretty oftenthat various demons crawl around me and try to torment me. I even quite often think that I’m infested with evil spirits.I’m trying to fight this spirits in the name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. But they turn back for a while thenthey try to come back and torment me again. After being in my room I switched on my laptop and the browser’s sessionwith every content I have left opened since yesterday night poped up. A song of the Christian Metal Band Messiah Prophet has poped up.Nice listening to Christian Metal does make me feel better and leave me take breath. Sometimes I can hardly breathe.Of course there is nothing strange about that considering my past ungodly antichrist past life for years.I just hope that the Our Holy Father in the Name of the son and our saviour Jesus Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit will prevail and hold me tight in his embrace me with his loving kindness and deliver me from all this terrible hellish statethat try to control and influence my spirit.A demons probably with whom I had communion in my past are frequently tring to return to me and torment me in a various ways,but the Lord is always true and delivers me and safeguards me! Blessed be our God the master of Heavens and earth! Glory be to hisHeavenly Throne! Amen!The past week I spend in a hesitation what do I really want from life. I’m feeling bad that I’m not completely be able to servethe Lord with my life. I somehow feel like sticking to this life because I’m studying in university and confortingto the life of the world less or more. I should say I hate it earnestly. Sometimes I realize I don’t have even lovefor the neighbor nor for God. Terrible, the only time when I have love is when God grants me his grace by his mercy.I quite often feel lonely and forgotten. I’m reading the bible everyday at least few pages per day, also I try to prayon morning and evening time. Another thing that’s really hard for me is to manage the language aperantly my englishlanguage level is quite poor. My mind is not a brillian one. I try to google around and advance it somehow but quiteoften the fact that I forgot the words when I want to say something is really terrible experience. This constantforgetting thing is most probably based on the stress I live daily with. I should say a Big thanks to God for takingcare for the servers I manage and bringing me money. Thanks Lord Almighty ! Through the week I didn’t have much workwith the servers and praise the Lord it’s like this otherwise I won’t simply be able to bear it. I’m hardly bearingmy spiritual burden quite often … Some of the Spiritual guys who read that would definetely know what I mean.I have that rule that everyday I commit my life in our Saviour Jesus Christ’s hands and beg the God (The Holy Trinity)for mercy over me the sinner, and HalleluJah! The Lord is never slow in helping me. Here in the Netherlands it’s terribleme and the others eat a big amounts of food ! When I tell you big then I mean BIG, A Really big ones! It’s horrible.Let me go back to my story after I went back from the university back to the dorm. I saw in youtube a reference pointing toLarry Norman’s songs. For all Christian Metalheads that don’t know Larry Norman you might want to read in wikipedia about him.In short he is believed/said to be the father of Christian Hard Rock/Metal. One of his most favourity songs is “Why the Devil sohuld Havel all the Good Music”, and my personal favourite, a one called “Sweet, Sweet Song of Salvation”. Trust me Larry Norman is Good.He started writing music around 1960’s, and is famous for being a member of the band “People!”. This guy is a really legend,and has done wonderful work spreading the Lord of our saviour Jesus Christ. Unfortunately he has departered from lifethis January (2008), after a short illness and a heart break after a heart attack. I’ve sinked again into details.A little later Ina and Riri (an indonesian colleague) came to my room and asked me if I’m joining to the city center.To be honest I did as always tried to refuse. But they were convincing and thanks God, the argument that made them convince methe most is that we were going to look for a tradition Netherlands souvenirs for our families. We did so.We took the bus after that I remembered of my intention to buy an mp3 player so we dropped by to MediaMarkt (the local consumer electronicsstore). After a little bit of thiking over I decided to take A Creative Zen Mozaik 2G mp3 player. One major motive was the pricesince it costed only 55 EUR and I didn’t wanted to spend too much on an mp3 player. After we took the mp3 player. We took our wayfor the souvenirs grocery store. I realized I was hungry and asked Riri where I might get some food she suggested me to eat froma kiosk located on our way. In the kiosk it was produced a typical ViVietnamese kind of food, at least that what the advertisement says.I didn’t wanted to have a meaty portion so I took the vegetarenian one. The peddlar asked me something and I couldn’t get it, so Riri transleated. The mister asked if I want a sour or sweet sauce. It’s really strange here in The Netherlands, that usuallyput sour or sweet sauce on their meails. For comparison in Bulgaria it’s completely different story. They always ask you if you wantketchup and mayonese or both and that’s it. Anyways we went to that souvenir shop, after the girls hanged around in few stores (well girls,you know them they are always crazy about shopping). We went afterwards to the Barbershop where Riri had to have her haircut. The hairstylist happened to be a gay and Riri felt unconfortable that I called him a couple of times a gay, but yes that’s me it’s in mynature to call things with their real names and be a little bit more blatant. In the meantime we had a coffee with a traditional cookie (a waffle) I should acknowledge it was a really nice one. We went back to the gay barber coz Riri had to have her haircut. Ina had the desireto have her haircut as well but the hair stylist has an already full schedule list. We went afterwards to a clothing store”New Yorker” and Riri and Ina bought some stuff. Ina bought a kind of open blouse and a scarf (for her brother) and Riri took a scarf as well.Later on we went to a household store “Xema”? or something I couldn’t precisely remember the name. And we went to another coffeebecause we have to wait some time for another indonesian friend of Riri. After the girl came and we were completed we went toa really cheap chineese restaurant named “Ho-Me”. The meal was nice for the price only 3.45 EUR! Riri told us that a lot of students areeating there. Afterwards we took the Bus from a “Willensplein” this is quite a lot famous place where usually people arrange meetingsjust like the place “The Clock” we have in Dobrich. We went home and I tried my new mp3 player. It worked nice. But I’ll say more on thatin a separate post because I think that might be helpful to some GNU/Linux enthusiasts like me out there. Just to conclude this really stretched post.For all the day and the rest passed days I gave the Glory to the Lord of Hosts who keeps me, sustains me and provides me with more than required in my daily life! Thanks Lord! Oh yes I just remembered for all interested into Christian Metal you might want to check my newly created account in youtube’s playlist the location of the address is Here! Let our Lord and Saviour be Glorified with this account and the account bring a lot of people to God who’s will is that everybody comes to repentance and accepts his love for us the sacrifice of his only begotten son and our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, through which everything is and will be now and Forever and Ever . Amen! I pray the The Father in the name of Jesus Christ that this link brings abundant harvest and save as much as he will through his grace and providence leading them to him through that collection of Christian Metal great Metal Music and consequently save them and guide them in his divine grace. Amen!END—–