Posts Tagged ‘lord jesus’

Sick again – Hoping God to solve it all – and no desire to study

Thursday, September 27th, 2007

Yesterday I was out for a coffee with Tony an old frined from the Old metal days, after that I went outwith Lily I drinked 200 gr of Vodka and a Beer. I was pretty desparate actually and I got very drunk I got home 04:10 and got to bed at 4:30. What can I say life is hard. Today Mitko called at dinner time and we drinked a coffee on the fountain. The night we went out in the Central park and drinked a beer per man. I’m starting to think about the meaningless of my life again, since my life seems without a real purpose and seems not going nowhere ( we humans are so weak ). Yesterday I have almost taken the decision to suicide. It almost a miracle after I send lily to her home and was going back home with the idea of my mind to suicide. Lily called and said she can’t unlock the door and everyone inside is sleeping and she didn’t want to disturb them. So we spend more than an hour outside. Today I feel terrible physically again. I really can’t take it anymore I need Jesus to bless me with a healing (Save me Holy Lord, Lord Jesus son of the Blessed God have mercy over me the sinner heal me Lord and Deliver me from all sickness and affliction and pain Heal my Soul, Body and Spirit, make me whole to be able to serve you again :[ Amen) My computer went down twice today I have a problem with the cooling. The cooler should be cleaned but I guess this will happen after our Room’s repair is completed. By the way Both Pc-Freak and Jericho are on the terrace. Because repair works are being done into the room. Day after day I ask my self the question when I will be healed again. I do smoke a lot of cigarettes for which I’m ashamed of myself (But it’s an act of desperation). By the way I don’t have any desire to study anymore I’d like to do things with FreeBSD and learn stuff. If God is merciful to me and heals me probably I’ll continue to live otherwise I guess I’ll end badly. Very often come to the point Nobody out there cares, them I feel the presence of God’s spirit I remember the Bible’s instruction towards doubtful mind and try return back to the Faith of the Eternal, It’s like a sort of schizofrenia (I believe, I don’t believe). I’m sure both cannot be true. Very often I think I deserve more but since God’s rightous probably that’s what I deserve. I tried do good for so many people and to care for as much people I’m very discouraged because as a reward I see it like receiving this infirmity and sickness … Something have to change or I’ll be gone …END—–

The Nativity – Рождество – animated movie re-telling the story of Christ’s birth (мультфильм Михаила Алдашина)

Tuesday, January 8th, 2013

с Рождеством Христовым !!!!

Рождество – The Nativity (мультфильм Михаила Алдашина)

It is  Natavity of Christ in most the Orthodox Christian world. It is common the feast is celebrated 3 days in us Orthodox. Many of the Orthodox Christians celebrate Christmas on 6-th against 7-th until 9-th of January because, many of national Orthodox Churches are still using Julian Calendar for calculating the dates and in Julian Calendar 24-th against 25-th of December is on 6-th against 7-th January in the Gregorian calendar. This year I'm celebrating with Serbian and Russian Orthodox Churches thus today I'm united with the joy of Serbs and Russians from the good news of Christ's birth. I know  little of Russian and Serbian culture, so while looking for Russian and Serbian songs, I've stumbled upon a beautiful Russian animation movie re-telling the Wondrous things around the Nativity of our Savior and King Jesus. The video is perfect for Christian families who want to teach, their kids to be good Christians and to know their faith well. I think parents should do their best to find for some non-violence filled kind animations like those to grow a sane psychic stable adults. Most of the videos nowadays on TV and  youtube, are very unsuitable for kids, and for purely psychological point of view they raise the kid psychic be filled with fears of unknown dangers, monsters and mythical un-existing heroes. Now in ex-communist countries like my own Bulgaria, many people's kids knows very well who is Batman, Spiderman, Ninja Turtles, Peter Pan, Ben 10 etc. but they have no idea who is their savior and true life giver Jesus. Christ's birth story and miracles surrounding it besides being an infallable truth, also have been told from parents to kids over the last 2000 years. Nowadays with advancement of technology, parents could be more lazy and  just play the story in youtube, but most of them are even lazy to do this. They prefer the kid takes care alone for himself, leave him with the TV switched on on Cartoon Network or Nickelodeon TV channel to fill his forming psychic with atrocities and false mysticism and believe and desire for "magics". Our fore-fathers worked hard to make our fathers, not to incline year on magic and mystical stories and now we sadly ignore, their good example and with our indifference do to our kids just the opposite. Still there is hope, if you're an young kid or growing teenager parent, you can make a difference, by simply trying to spend more time with your kid speak about his problems and re-tell him the Wondreous Evangelical Events or just play him this movie and movies aline.

Let the incarnated Lord Jesus, who took flesh by the Holy Immaculate womb of Virgin Mary have mercy on all Orthodox growing Children and Parents! Let by the Holy prayers of the Most Holy Theotokos, God give us all good minds to turn ourselves to care for our families, kids and relatives. Let the peace, hope, love and good health be abundant for us today and in the days to come of our short earthly life!


Christ is born ! Truly he is Born!

 

Weekend with a lot of friends

Monday, April 7th, 2008

I spend the weekend with a lot of friends. God has prepared another great time for me. In Friday I was out with Alex, and we had a long discussion for who is God, because he thinks he can know the Lord without our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ which is completely wrong and impossible like it’s written how our Lord says “I and the Father are one” and again “Noone comes to the Father except through me“. At friday I was out with Static a friend and brother in Christ 🙂 We went to the school where he lives “Dimitar Talev”. This is the second time when I visit this school but it’s so colourful and I like it so much that I wished for a second to be pupil again :). In Sunday I went to Liturgy as often I went to bed very late in Saturday so I wasn’t able to wake in the morning and I went to the Church service somewhere around 9:30. The Priest’s preach was about the gospel’s where our Lord Jesus freed and healed a boy who was very often abused by wicked spirits, he also mentioned how some of the ppl fasts only abstaining from food and how this ain’t fast at all. He gave us interesting example how the animals who ate meet are cruel and animals who eat grass are very meek and pure. For example he said look into the fox, wolf they eat meet and they’re fierce animals whether animals like sheeps and rabbits eat only grass and are mostly good. He also mentioned that the st. Ioan Zlatoust(John / James the Goldenmouth) said that the fasting gives wings to the soul. In the church I saw Stelio the man who introduced me to the Orthodox Faith and after the Service we spend some great time in the park talking about the past during the communist regime here in Bulgaria, also the current state in the country etc. etc. In 12:30 we had previously arranged meeting with two of my colleagues from the College. We had to make the SPSS project which we have to complete and pass to the teacher today. Thanks God everything just went smoothly. And we had to make just a little text to the project in order to complete it. In 09:00 we went to the Fountain with Vlado (hellpain), because he was here for the weekend. Now just after I came home I prayed I take a shower. And I intend to read a bit from the bible and go to sleep.

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