Probably a lot of people like me search the exact meaning of life. I still can’t get it I really have no idea. I’m not happy with my life I’m honest. I want a better life I want fulfilment of what my mission here on earth is ( if there is … ofcourse ). At least I’m a happy person I know i have to dig in “God”, he may set my path and explain me. Probably he is explaining me everyday the bad think is I’m a bad listener, and since God is a spirit you know it’s hard to communicate with spirits.Hope something nice will happen in my life and it will clean my past. God I really need to know you in fulness .. I have to be cleansed by your word Oh Lord. It’s the 5th day since I haven’t smoked cigarettes and I think more and more about cigarettes, nomatter it is best to stop since I’m destroying the temple of God with the smoke. The day started normally we went to the chineese restaurant with Nomen and Plamen, ate spaghetti, talked about a lot of non-sense. Luckily today we had a free day from the college. In the morning I watched a film called “The Secret”, after that I worked on the servers for some time (moved some sites into newly setupped jailkit ). I’m deviated in later times a part of me says live your life full time as a hardcore metal fan other part of me says live in purity (it’s really terrible), a part of me wants the happiness of my previous mindless life baning heads pogo .. you know all the stuff, the other part of me concentretes on compassion and love.I hope the seed in me while receiving the Gospel was good planted and will give it’s fruits or …Time will show. I have a task for the College to make but the last days I’m terribly lazy, we had to make a nice presentation, selecting a topic from 9 topics the presentation should be connected with business economics in general. Right now I’m listening to the good old Metallica .. Metallica really rocks :]END—–
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I’m still up here. On the New Year’s eve I was on a party more than 35 ppl were there. All kind of ppls fromMetalheads to Hip Hop maniacs, (ganja addicted) and ofcourse Ja (Rasta) fans. Almost the whole days Iplayed Dune 2 (Great Game, I play with Harkonen :)). The New Year was normal. Nomen bringed a winewhich costs 100.3 lv, the wine was good. Around this celebrities I started eating a lot and I’m on a wayto get fat. BTC are terrible we don’t have internet in the office now for almost 24 hours. This Winteris fierce. There are snowstorms around, and we even have a water regime. Yesterday I was out on a coffeewith Lily :), it’s a good thing that she is around.END—–
Haven’t blogged for some time so I’m going to write down few lines. Today I passed succesfully the Cisco CCNA2 Final Exam and the CCNA2 Voucher exam thanks to God :). The Voucher exam grants everybody who passed succesfully a discount of the price of the CCNA Certification exam, whi ch is pretty cool. To be honest I cheated at the 2 tests otherwise I won’t have passed but I’m really busy this days and I’m a bit of tired so this was the only option. I also made my CCNA2 (9,10,11) tests for which I used the cisco answers page :). CCNA2 The Final Exam and the Voucher wasn’t included in the blogspot cisco answers so I googled around but thanksfully I found the answers on a website in the net. This days I had a lot of fun and saw a lot of old friends (some of them studying others working in Sofia). It’s the summers holiday period in which tons of friends who are in other cities are back in Dobrich so I was able to spend nice time with a lot of them. This are ppl like: hellpain, nomen, mariana (one of my ex-girlfriend). At Wednesday I and Nomen went to the beach at Balchik, we had great fun there. We met together in front of the place we call “The Young House” at 7:30, at 8:30 we were already travelling to Balchik and in 9:35 we were on the beach. We stayed there until 12:30. Vlado and Mitko tried to learn me to be able to relax on my on back while in the water I almost did it but still I need some more tries until I’m able to make it the right way. At 13:00 we were back in Dobrich and we went to an open restaurant “Seasons”. I ate vegetarenian pizza and Vlado ate a meal called “English Breakfast”. “English Breakfast”. Right after that at 14:00 I went to the regional Red Cross building, because I had to get a course on “First Aid”, it’s required to have that course passed until you’re able to apply for a driving license after you complete both the theoretical exam and the practice exam. My driving practice exam would be at Wednesday at 9:00 to be honest I’m not still driving well and my driving course is almost over. My only hope for passing it in the Lord, only if he support me and guide me during the exam I’ll be able to pass. The same night I went out with Shanar and we later met hellpain and Alex. We had nice discussions in the city park until somewhere around 11:30. When we were going back home I met Mariana and I proposed her to have a walk together she accepted and we negotiated to meet around 30 minutes later. We spend 4 hours with her talking about stuff and drinking beer. I should say she is one of the only girls I’m able to speak for hours and still feel good and confortable. The center of our talks were mainly God the Bible and in particular my belief in Christ Jesus as Lord and Saviour. At Friday morning I had driving courses early at the morning from 8:00 o’clock, later I went to Varna with my father because I had to pick up one bag I forgot the last time when I was in Varna, Thanks God we didn’t crashed. On our way to Varna there was a very dangerous situation in which the chances to crash was pretty big but thanksfully to God’s protection and kindness we didn’t. Later when we came back in Dobrich I went to the police office to check if international passport is ready. Thanksfully it was and now I have the “red passport” home and ready :). I called to Mariana to great her because it was the great christian feast, we at the Orthodox Church believe that at that day the Eartly Mother of our Lord Jesus has resurrected in the 3rd day and ascended to heaven just like our Lord! We call that celebrity “The Maryam’s day”. Everybody who is named after Mary’s name is also celebrating this great feast. We decided to meet at night time at 11:30 and have walk. Like I said earlier I really enjoy Mariana’s company. Unfortunately an hour later we met Bino so we wasn’t able to talk much about stuff with Mariana. Bino is pretty cool guy but sometimes his company is pretty annoying :). Later I went home and after a minute of prayer I went to bed. On August 22 I’m traveling to the Netherlands to continue my studies at the HRQM stream, sometimes I feel a sort of preliminary homesickness but I believe this decision is right and it’s God’s souvereign plan for my life. Well as Bugs Bunny (my favour cartoon character) says that’s all folks!END—–
Today I have Marketing exam. Ofcourse as usual when I have exams I haven’t studied enough, and again I’m in the situation realizing I don’t know anything. I depend 100% on God’s grace to take that exam. Why I’m so dumb never study when
I have what I have. I can’t change my self I can’t study something I’m not interested into. Marketing is a subject which is simple but for Jerks IMHO :]. The logic of marketing is too abstract.
And yes what’s happening with me the last days. Well I’m feeling good now Praise the Lord. I’ve no idea what I should do with my life. I have 2 re-exams for now or maybe 3 ( I don’t know the results from the Research & Statistics Exam ).
The last few days I ran FreeDOS and Windows 2000 Pro SP4 under FreeBSD 6.2 with qemu. FreeDOS’s performance is very nice despite the fact it is emulated. The Windows is running a little laggish although I ran it with kqemu ( Experimental Module for qemu which enhances the typical qemu speed ). Yesterday we drink a dark beer with Nomen into the “Happy Person” Pub. My passion for computers is starting to come back again.
I’m sick again. I feel terribly. It’s an awful thing to be sick. All the day I ask my self a question. Why people get sick? Is it because of the sin.
Well I’m a sinner but I’m trying not to sin as I much as I can as a human being. I guess the disease come from my sister. She was sick few days, ago. And I gently pleased her to take some pills and stuff, but she said she won’t. Now 3 days later I’m feeling terribly sick and in the same time. I’m really mad at here.
Hope my anti syster mood will shrink down soon. My day was a very common day. I started in the morning feeling terrible bad. Then read some for my exam in 26.01.2007, after that I drunk coffee with Nomen and ^Needless^ on the fountain.
Come back home watched some Cartoon Network animations and then I watched a documentary film called “Psychology – The Human Experience”. I’ve learned interesting thing for human psychology which I knew in the past but had forgotten during the years. The good thing about today was that nobody call me for something too urgent. Only one call from my collegue Zlatina which pleased me to check one of our client mails, the client claimed they can’t receive mails from outer of their domain location, I checked, but it turned to be a false positive.
So I’m greatful to the Lord at least for not bothering me too much from the DBG Office. Hey guess the Lord keeps an eye on my Servers :]. Praise be to him.
Can’t stop farting terribly the whole day :] Yesterday I ate tons of food without thinking I’ll suffer in the morning.I woke up with terrible acids in the stomach. It’s like the sin. When you sin again and again you don’t realize sinleads consequences after him body suffering illness and death in the end both spiritual and physical. My daystarted terrifying. I was feeling cold most of the day. I have a bad blood movement so it’s very usual for me to feel cold.I hate this coldness! I went to the college for an hour it happened I have hour after 1 hour. I was almost ready to sleep walking.Today I’m terribly sleepy. On my home I met “Narf” a collegue in the college who is an IRC maniac and linux fan also :]. He proposedto drink coffee. So we spent an hour on a coffee. He explained me about the structure of the IRC in general it seems the backbone of the UniBG irc is debian.spnet.net. After an hour we went to the college but it seems like our English class was not after an hour but 2 hours, again the dumbs mismatched The Schedule. Nomen was infront of the college and we drunk coffee together on the fountain. I had Introduction to Management after the Business English. My classes ended in 15:45. I take Habib and we went home and discussed his plans about his future. He have plans to fly for UK if they approve him for Visa and make some money to be able to pay his taxes. After that Nomen come home we played MAMEs. A very commical situation was in the midday when I was with Nomen infront of a food kiosks, he was wayting for his snack, suddenly I farted terribly :]]. And we started laughing cause it smelled very brutally :]] I have peace almost the whole day. And I feel God’s love through his holy spirit. Thanks Lord Shabbaoth glory be to your Holy name Father!END—–
I forgot I had German in the morning so I get to sleep at 3:00 a.m. In the morning my mother wake me up to ask my did I have lectures. I said yes in 10:00 then I rembembered about the German. I tried as fast as possible to stand up wash my teeths and go to the college. After the German we had some Introduction to Management classes. One of our programmers Pesho called me and said we have a problem with few of the scripts setupped to be run on crontab on one of the servers, then also the other programmer Milen called and said he had a problem with some other script which loops one of the webservers … having problems is really unpleasant. At least I’m not so sleepy as I should be for the small quantity of time I’ve slept in the night.We went to a coffee with Narf and Nomen in the lunch break after that Management again. And now I’m doing some stuff on the servers. I’m little tired now and maybe I’ll sleep. Praise the Lord for I’m spiritually okay most of the time today. Thanks God :]END—–
The day was Peaceful and Quiet. After I wake up Narf called and we see each other in front of the college, Nomen was ther elso we drink coffee on the fountain. Mitko told us experiences he had from Sofia, we laughed a lot. Then we go to the Chineese restaurant with Amridikon and Needless. I like the Rise with Vegetables there really awesome food :]. After that I bought “A Practical Teacher in C” and went home. Lily come home for 10 minutes, I read the Holy Bible for some time then I read The Living of the Martyr’s. Later Niki and Habib come home, and was my guests for some time. After that I take a shower chatted a little with Order and now I intend to go to bed. Thanks to God for taking care for my life and giving me peace and joy through his Holy Spirit. Thanks God!END—–