The meaning of life
Probably a lot of people like me search the exact meaning of life.
I still can't get it I really have no idea. I'm not happy with my
life I'm honest. I want a better life I want fulfilment of what my
mission here on earth is ( if there is ... ofcourse ). At least I'm
a happy person I know i have to dig in "God", he may set my path
and explain me. Probably he is explaining me everyday the bad think
is I'm a bad listener, and since God is a spirit you know it's hard
to communicate with spirits. Hope something nice will happen in my
life and it will clean my past. God I really need to know you in
fulness .. I have to be cleansed by your word Oh Lord. It's the 5th
day since I haven't smoked cigarettes and I think more and more
about cigarettes, nomatter it is best to stop since I'm destroying
the temple of God with the smoke. The day started normally we went
to the chineese restaurant with Nomen and Plamen, ate spaghetti,
talked about a lot of non-sense. Luckily today we had a free day
from the college. In the morning I watched a film called "The
Secret", after that I worked on the servers for some time (moved
some sites into newly setupped jailkit ). I'm deviated in later
times a part of me says live your life full time as a hardcore
metal fan other part of me says live in purity (it's really
terrible), a part of me wants the happiness of my previous mindless
life baning heads pogo .. you know all the stuff, the other part of
me concentretes on compassion and love. I hope the seed in me while
receiving the Gospel was good planted and will give it's fruits or
... Time will show. I have a task for the College to make but the
last days I'm terribly lazy, we had to make a nice presentation,
selecting a topic from 9 topics the presentation should be
connected with business economics in general. Right now I'm
listening to the good old Metallica .. Metallica really rocks
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