Into great depression - What is like to live in
the Balkans?
I'm so depressed these days that I'm trying to write something
decent here but everytime I try I do stop and delete all I have
written and start from scratch again.
It's terrible, I believe everyone have this days and they're so
dark that even the smallest ray of light is gone somewhere...
The causes for depression are multiple, I know we're entering into
the season period and that could be a factor, but truly for a long
time I haven't felt that bad and I really cannot find the true
cause. It's like hunting the unexplained.
Being a citizen of a countries on the balkans brings a lot of
questions which cannot get answered. Why we the Balkan and more
specificly most of the Orthodox Christian countries are suffering
so badly and economically in constant crisis and recession?
From a material perspective Bulgaria is one of the worst countries
one can live in, we the people on the balkans are chronically
depressed and it really seems like a downward spiral
We've been gone through so far, when I was a child we were teached
in the spirit of communism and a believe in a hard material
realities.
Communism has taught us we're all fleshly brothers and we should
live in groups and stick to the group, now as the democracy come
it's on the contraty, we're being constantly re-taught that we
should leave behind the group kind of thinking and all built from
communism destroy it all and build the new society... We're told by
individualist nations like USA and Western europe that the only
thing for the good of a person is to (get an absolute
individualistic life and only exist for the greater goodness of
each ones self as individuals..
As with everything the Balkans are notable for being a very
unordered place. Living here is like living in chaos...
The social security policies here are not working, the jurisdiction
is working on behalf of the rich, the police force is seriously
disfunctional and easily bribable. Put next to all this shit a high
levels of unemployment and a lot of unhappy depressed people
crawling around the streets and you get the picture ...
As a normal consequence most of the young people have entered a
dark ways of alcoholism and hard-core nihillism.
There are high level of people who are oriented into the new dark
realities of Metal or underground music.
Each philosophy that is being put in from the west is being adopted
here and being multiplied million times and mostly the bad things
are being adopted and less rarely the good ones...
It's so mixed up that nobody can explain why it is happening as it
is here.
I really am trying hard to convince myself for a years now that it
is worthy to live here but the more I live here in Bulgaria the
more I see all is getting worser than getting for good.
I wonder for how long it will go this pointless way, we the balkan
people are living in ruins literally.
The only light we still have is the Church, but very sadly most
people has left behind the faith and prefer to follow the fake
American dream than to obey to our old ways and traditions.
Globalisation has entered in the Balkans in a full-force and is
destroying our ancient culture and traditions and building the
fakeness that most of the people prefer to adore nowdays ...
Bulgaria's population is mostly based of old people and we're a
dying nation, if a miracle doesn't happen then we definitely will
be gone.