Harmony
I need harmony. I'm overwhelmed with work and thoughts about
existence, you know it's a terrible thing to think about the human
existence all the time. The time passes slowly. Today I went
throught a lot of stress. It seems that I did a mistake when
modifying the server firewall in Friday when we moved pozvanete and
connections about the aids were not possible thanksfully Vladi said
it will be fixed. Bobb reported that efficiencylaboratory system
does not send emails when I take a look I saw the qmail queue was
broken ( something I see for a first time ). qmail-qstat reported
empty queue while qmail-qread reported empty. I found this about
fixing messed queues http://pyropus.ca/software/queue-repair/.
After running it over the queue and restarting the mail server few
times it seemed to work at the end. I experience terrible problem
when trying to run jailkit on one Debian Sarge machine, I'm trying
to figure out what is the reason few days ago with no luck a
terrible thing even stracing the jk_socket does not provide with
anything that could lead to a solution when I'm logging into the
machine with the jailed user the auth.log indicates that login is
successful and sftp-server is spawned while the sftp client closes
the connection. I'll be looking at this later again I really ran
out of ideas aboud a possible solution.I'm very tired I need rest.
Too often I despair sometimes I want to cry, there is so much
unrightfulness in the world. On Saturday night me and Nomen decided
to do a pretty рeckless thing we catched the train for Botevo and
spend the night in a forest around a fire. This time we was equiped
at least we had a torch. We baked bread and potatoes on the fire
and made a sort of sandwiches with a salt and cucumbers. At least
this time we went to the other forest and there were trees all
around so it wasn't necessary to search for them in the darkness.
All the forecast said it would rain. But Praise the Lord it didn't.
(We even prayed a little to God not to rain cause we had not the
proper equipment ). Thanksfully again God heard our prayers. The
only bad side of our great adventure was that after 1:00 o'clock in
the morning the temperature started falling and it was extremely
cold. I was able to sleep just for 40 minutes or so. In the morning
after 6:00 the birds started to awaken and sing, so beautiful
voices all around, even flickers :]. In went to the Botevo's
railway station and in 8:40 take the train back to Dobrich. I went
home and took a shower then went to bed. I was woken by a telephone
call and it was the missionary which call me two days ago wanted to
see me and speak about the faith, he call me to remind me of our
meeting ( from the way he speaks I undestood he is a Mormon ). So I
decided to rewrite the Orthodox Creed of Faith and show him and
explain them what I believe. When we met they were very kind to me
and after some time they supposed to go to their church to explain
us about their faith. I went their and they started talking strange
things they wanted to pray together ( I rejected ofcourse ). How
can we pray a prayer I have no idea about. After a lot of
discussion about the Gospel and the truth Church they got angry and
chased me out of their sect/"church" ;] They tried to lie they
tried to claim they're orthodox Christians in the first cause I
told them I'm orthodox. One of the Moroms tried to convince me he
knows more about orthodox Christianity more than me. Other of the
two cited me a some Writting in the Book of Jeremiah trying to
convince me I have existed before my birth, I told him this is
occult (this was my opinion ofcourse God knows best).