Beside myself
There is not much to say, Recently I'm experiencing mix of
spiritual and emotional fluctuations ups and downs. I feel so alone
quite often. There are not many valuable people (considering my
interests). Day by day I'm asking myself the question "Hey man ,
why are you studying HRQM this stupid secreatary stuff." I'm
confused quite a lot and in a state of a denial, or better to say I
feel a kind of lost because I'm out of my confort zone .. The
teachers here in the HRQM stream claim that when a man is
frightened and out of his confort zone, then he is learning a lot.
They might be true about that, I don't know. At Friday we had that
Business Ethics test. Before the test we watched the movie "The
Wizard of Oz" a movie from the distant year 1939. Right after the
class was over I went home and laundered my clothes. Then we had a
dinner. Today I woke up around 11:00, had my breakfast at around
13:00 and near 13:30 I went out for a walk. I went to the city
center and walked around the river Netherlands Rijn. A little later
I walked through the city center around the open market which was
located right before The St. Eusibeus Chapel. I went through a
waggon which sells bibles in different languages and tried to draw
people back close to God and spoke for a while with one nice old
man who said used to be a Christian for 40 years already. Then I
went for shopping to the grocy stores Aldi and Albertheijn and went
back "home" to Honigkamp... That's mostly how my day passed ... I
should thank to God for still caring for me and providing me with
all necessary for my daily living. Thanks Lord!