Walking in Light With Christ - hip0's personal blog on System Administration, Free Software, Computer Security and Religion

UTP a friend of mine has provided me with this nice caricatur It shows how ppl who work with computers have a lot of spare time. check it out here

I feel in a huge distress these days. My heart tears on a thousand of pieces. I have clashes and quarrels at school. Today I almost cracked out during one of the IBP meetings. The devil tries to oppress me hardly. I broke the Lent a bit because I bought a coffee from a vending machine at school and I realized it contains milk right after I have paid for it since I have paid I couldn't just leave it. On Sunday there was a liturgy in the Russian Orthodox Church here in Anrnhem. The previous two nights aunt Zlatina and her husband slept at my place. I guess these had a good influence on me, however it was pretty ugly that they smoked so much in my room. I couldn't stand the smoke anymore. I'm broken hearted as I said already. I have some confort in reading my Orthodox Bible. Although it is a Lent time the priests in the Orthodox church did drinked that really distracted me since they insist on keeping the fast and the saviour Jesus has prescribed us to fast. If I break the fast well that's okay but they are supposed to keep it since they are into priesthood. However I did sinned with thinking this bad thoughts in my heart I don't have the right to judge them. Today I had SHR Meeting. Things are sleeping out of my mind. To be honest I feel like a completely dying man... Oh Lord please help me, sustain me in my infirmity and madness. Don't leave me fail and become a laughingstock for the ungodly. My mind is pretty much distracted this days as well. I don't have a desire for anything ... Day after day just existing. To be honest I experience bad feelings and the more I look in myself I see wrongness and sinfulness and evil. I just pray that the Lord have mercy on my and grant me to pass my stuff this semester. I had a bit of work with launching a new site design for one of the hosted websites and had some unclearances before all got resolved. My discography of Larry Norman which I'm downloading is on it's way to me. And I'll have it in a couple of hours, at least that's nice. I asked the Lord for forgiveness and experienced a bit of relief as well as when I was reading the bible I felt okay.. The teachears are preaching a psychologic method called Transactional Analysis, which is I think pretty much demonic, they use it heavily, more about that could be seen on wikipedia TA

The day was intensive as usual. We had OPL which as usual was a shit and afterwards we had OPL. Toine and Joop attempted to gave us again a hard time and bullied us hard about our Project Plan we're trying to develop for SHR. Then in the evening I went to Russian Church by walking to exercise my muscles a bit and save an 1.10 EUR (the bus ticket price). We had a nice singing session, it's so nice that the Lord allows me to sing for him. Zlati has just phoned me and he proposed to be my guest so he is probably now travelling by train to Arnhem. Yes something more I yesterday met a nice guy that I'm already meeting on a couple of times, he usually feeds the swans and ducks in the Presikhaf park (that is the small park near school. I had some work to do when I came back home after the rehearsals with the Choir. Then I prayed a bit raid some of "the law" in the old testament and went to bed.

A friend of mine (SIC-a) referred me to a great article on the topic of password cracking. It seems some guy out there has created a md5 password cracker which is claimed to be the world's largest password cracker. The article could be seen here Enjoy! The idea behind the cracker is that it takes advantage of the Video card (GPU) or in other words the video CPU. It's reported to work with NVidia 8xxx++ and a couple of others

This terrible constant pain feeling that's inside is there to stay. I do keep my attempts to isolate what is the cause of it. I have a couple of theories. That it might be related to the water in the dormitory here or the place itself. Like we know from the bible that there are cursed places, like Sodom was before God destroyed it, however we know also that Lot was rightous and God spared him. I also recently have red while I was doing my usual bible readings before sleep time that our Lord Jesus commanded the Holy Apostles to say "Peace be to this house" regarding every house they used to enter. The Lord said if the house is worthy let apostles peace be there. I just experimented with this I said in the house "Peace be to that house" with the hope that this place God might consider worthy. However I have so much internal struggles apart from the pain I'm constantly facing temptations from the enemy of accusations of other people and claims that they do stuff wrong, satan is trying to influence me really badly. Yesterday I was on a verge to a burn out. This week I had plenty of work to do. I tried my best. Many things happened this week. First on Tuesday under my influence and the decision of our project manager to quit, we experienced her statement that she is out of the project. We had to select a new PM, after some voting there were two options between two girls eventually we ended up with Ina being our new PM (I wasn't completely convinced that this is the correct thing to do, because of her dominant character, however at the end I accepted the fact. And tried a couple of maneuvers with the clear aim to clear up all sort of offenses that I raised again anybody in the group and the same time to try to decrease the gap that's being formed between me and some other "key" group members. The change of the PM had been a wise choise since the old PM Bianca (great girl btw!, really impressive) but the problem was she tried to manage the group in too "open" way. And the students weren't of course on the level to handle that, therefore she couldn't make it. Well I suspect her exit of the project was quite planned and there is some good reason between it as well as a benefit for everybody (guess that was a strategic move). The teachers are quite a lot playing with us, literally, manipulating the situation as always, I really hate that Oh Lord I just hope that the Lord God would deliver me from this evil thinkers. Well all this teachers I could see they think that business could be profitable only if you act manipulatively on ppl, hide your cards always plan and trigger events on your behalf. Well I personally believe this is quite a lot satanic, so I decide to follow God and not to follow this behaviour. Or better to say take only parts of it like triggering, but the way for triggering to be honesty and openness instead of the opposite way. Anyways this post is getting too long so I'll try to hasten it a bit. Yesterday we went with Zlati to Nijmegen as he said he is coming here on Tuesday. He slept at my place, he went out with some Asian guys, I had to went home to fix some stuff a qmail installation on one of the new servers that I had to configure for Winner Ltd. Happily with God's help I managed to complete the task after a lot of tampering in the qmail components. The day after we went with Zlati to Nijmegen, I had to note the two way ticket was quite cheap (only 4.50 EUR). There weren't much to be seen in Nijmegen, the only nice thing we saw there was actually a couple of buildings as well as a probably traditional wedding in the Netherlands.It was funny really the guests were taking pictures with the bridegrooms infront of a Church, and they were on their way to lock the Chuch right afterwards the marriage .. Oh Lord, that was so bad to see we have gone so miserable and unbelieving the wedding within a Church has become the next tradition we ppl have to follow, not seen really as a union in front of God and trhough God but just as something to make to tickle our selfishness ... Anyways we were having a walk around Nijmegen when my father's cousin ringed and told me they are infront of the dormitory in Arnhem. Well I had to ask her to wait for an hour because I was on the neighbor city Nijmegen, but there was no way I expected them to come later on at the evening. So hurried up a bit with our walk around the city and it's shops. We got a free coffee in some pc selling shop through a coffee machine provided by AMD! So cool, great marketing. This machine pretty much did played a role in convincing me to buy AMD if I have to buy a new CPU in the future. We also take a look at a special alcohol grocery store, I haven't seen so much alcohol brands in my life, that reminded me pretty much to the winery we visited a couple of weeks before in Amsterdam. I was thinking, people doesn't need so much choice it's too much ... Well what I liked about communism was that at least the choice was in a limits so you could possibly be aware of most of the brands and be easy with them, instead of having so much choice that you absolutely lost in what to choose. We entered a couple of game selling specific shops ! Nice I would like to see more of this in the future, well you know I used to be a gamer in my past I guess this had left some trace of itself in me. Then we catched the train back for Arnhem it was only a 20 minutes travel. We were in Anrhem took the bus "connexion" and went back to the dorm. My relatives "cousin Zlatina and uncle Ivailo" came along and stayed at my room for the night, I loose myself a bit because I had probably a demonic attack and on top of that I've received an email from one of my bosses asking about some data about dbg dnses's ips. I encountered the fact he needs our dnses so therefore I replied him back with an email pointing to the dbg dns tutorial. He got mad and replied back with an email attempting to accuse me that it's my fault and I don't read my mails because he wanted the "IP addresses". Then I got a bit irritated and at the same time felt bad and firstly I thought that he might be right, but then after rethinking it I realized that I did the right think because he asked for DNS-es and actually it's not possible by RFC standards to put an IP for a DNS. Thus I bringed him back an email explaining all this and asked him for some more clarification on the matter in order to know shall I do a records in the dbg dnses or not, since then I never have received an email from, well thanks God. What really pissed me of on top of that was a demonic forces which tried to attack me, a spiritual sadness plus some desperation and irritation from the fact that my partens had sent me food which will sufficient for at least 3 months without me buying anythink else than bread, they sent 6 box full of provisions, one of them was fully full with Bulgarian tins containing meet and on top of the box was ones containing pork meet. Heavens you could imagine how irritated and hurt I was by all this considering the fact that I said to my parents numerous times: " Do not send me tins, I'm fed up with tins cause I eat tin food here, most of the time", anyways they haven't really listened to me ... as usual so I got pissed up and flared up(exploded). So I acted pretty stupid in front of my cousin, then I had to give them two my apologies for the stupidities I've said or done, but still I firstly begged them to pick up all the tins containing meet, happily we ended to a consent that they'll pick up the port tins and I'll eat the rest of the tin after the Lent is over. However I felt pretty much bad of the fact that i had to have a cardboard box full of meet containg tins through the whole Lent period. I have to note that I did broke the Lent already a lot of times because I had some cappuchino left for drinking from before and yesterday also I ate a lot of Bulgarian cheese together with my relatives, we also did had a nice chat and drinked two small cups of the traditional drink "Rakia" i was really refreshing really! Just to clarify things up a bit I usually hate "Rakia", this time it was great Then some few hours later we went to bed I slept on a place where Plamen slept next to the heater laying on a couple of pillows of a sofa jointed together. I slept quite okay although only for a couple of hours. I couldn't sleep more cause of Ivailo's voicy snoring. Today early in the morning we drinked coffee together had another chat, they encouraged me to be more brave and not to spirit lifted and I sent them to continue with their travel to Belgium where they have to look and buy some of the firnuture they sell in their tiny futniture shop in Dobrich. Wow I know that post became huge ... Thanks and Glory to God for keeping me still running on! Glory Oh Lord! Recently I use to listen to a lot of Larry Norman related music in last.fm, I feel it like quite beneficial for putting me out of this terrible bitterness feeling that keeps to rule me on. Glory God!

A friend of mine (Necrolea) had just sent me a funny drawing representing our human major tendencies in life. here Here it is

Since I'm running Debian Lenny for some time and I'm a gnome user, I recently was playing with gnome trying to figure out the new things in it and I stucked on Gnome System profiler and Benchmark. I remember this little handy app was in previous gnomes as well, however this version is quite sophisticated. I used i tto generate a profile for my Thinkpad 8943 DTG Notebook. Here is the itself

Well the sorrow was there during the day. I spend almost the whole day at school. First we had IMM meeting with my group. I had to call them because they haven't been in the library. They tried to blame me for being half an hour late but it seemed I had it written down in my Icedove calendar that it's in 11:00, cause I had received on a friday an email saying we meet at 11:00 it seemed I received a second one few minutes after by Ina but the email was addressed to my working email, thus I had it wrongly scheduled. I tried to point out at the many probles and a wrong way of working in the group so a big clash has emerged. Ina found herself being insulted by my mean behaviour so she first said she quits the IMM group as well the other group the IBP one. Thanksfully with God's abundant mercy ang grace she returned back in a couple of minutes and we continued reviewing the IMM internal and external analysis. Well it's interesting that when I told them how things are all started pointing at me and blaming, however I felt a relief, it was quite bad that I raised my voice and started sort of screaming at a certain point. But Ina really put me out of balance with her attitude. The problem was that I'm telling them things because I tend usually to think over things continuously and I have some experience within the company I work for for more than 4 years now, but let me stop here because otherwise it might look like proud and I don't want to have nothing with it. Let me elaborate on the sorrow. My explanation is that this are demons (torments) who are trying to torment my spirit as well as others spirits so grief comes, I tend to experience this with a certain people, you might think that I'm imaging things but anyways I'm starting to get pretty much convinced that this is the key. I'm listening the whole day last.fm related Christian Artists to Larry Norman. I could say that they influnce on me is quite positive. I feel calm and relaxed when I listen to this music. After the meeting for IMM, I stayed some more time on the 1st floor in the school library working on my IBP assignments (Industry Definition and Strategic Positioning for the fabricated It company we have it's called PinPane and it's main product line is supposed to be notebook with touchscreen displays. With God's grace and great help I was able to accomplish a lot today, the whole IBP think should be pretty much completed I hand it in to the other group members and now I'm waiting for their feedback. I don't have if I have mentioned but in case I haven't I'm in a process of writting an Exemption letter (basicly this is a letter you write describing where you have worked and for how long, then a commission examines it and decides if it's enough to free you from Internship/Placement). I hope that with God's mercy all will went okay, if that's the case then I could directly start writting my GA (graduation assignment) and I'm done with the studies. The day went quite okay, the only work I had to do was to fix few minor things for Winner Ltd. one of the company I manage few servers. I thank and Praise the Lord for his endless mercies to me the sinner. Blessed be the Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit now and Forever and Ever ! Amen. Now I'll probably have my supper. Then maybe watch a movie and then went to bed. But first I have to revise Pave's Driving Forces part

I had that sadness,desperation feeling again. I'm starting to feel that this is somehow related to my stay in the dormitory. I guess the devil is trying to bring me down, however I'm sure the Lord Jesus my saviour would beat him up really bad :D. Here is a link to the pictures we have token with Zlati in Amsterdam Amsterdam pics . Let me review in few words my weekend. On laundry done my laundry strethed out my clothes etc. Went to bed quite late. Saturday I woke up, can't precisely remember what I did then. I remember I had that sorrow in me. Oh Lord, Oh Lord help pls. ON saturday I went to Sali's place to teach him and his wife a bit of simple Windows basic things, then we went out and went to Lumiere the restaurant where Ina and Javor are working right now. We was on a way to have an argue with Tazira (the wife of the owner of the restaurant), because I mentioned that Jesus is the Son of God. And she outlined that that's not true, however for good or bad the argue didn't progressed. Sali introduced me there to a Pakistan guy, nice guy btw. He decided to pay our drinks which was pretty kind of him. We had a small walk around the city center around midnight and then we took the bikes from the bike parking and heded back to home. On Sunday I slept until 11:43 I believe, then I gathered my clothes from the drying ropes. Then sit on my notebook and did something, I cannot recall right now. Anyways then I had to right my "Commission" part for the SHR Project. Sali ring in skype and offered me to show me a nice big park they have here in Arnhem, I acccepted and headed to his place. Drago and Pavel were there we drinked coffee together another boy I know rom the college Dido came there. Sali and her wife treated us with some candies and chocolate bars. Then we went to that park the as we had prevfiously agreed. The park is called Sonsbeek. It was quite relaxing to be there thanks God. Now I'm home reviewing and fixing parts of what we have written previously for the IMM project.

Recently I googled a bit about something and by accident (no accidents really exist) I stumbled upon two interesting prophecies One of Saint Kosmas from Aitolia and the other was St. Nile's. You could check them out in youtube. Or simply follow check them here:
1. Saint Nile's prophecy
Saint Kosmas prophecy Glory be to the Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit! Now and forever and ever! Amen!

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Today I was googling around about tutorial to learn how to make diagrams via openoffice draw and I stumbled upon the following nice tutorial check it out here

One of the companies I work for has just recently purchased 2 new servers. The machines came bundled with CentOS "yikes". I wasn't happy about the fact the servers came up with this s*itty OS. Though there wasn't a chance to change the OS, the guys in Sofia lacked the competence and the time to roll on a FreeBSD or Gnu/Debian installation. Therefore I had to live with it and start administering 2 new servers running CentOS. Most of the things with the install and updates went fine with CentOS's software management software "yum". I had to install apache+php+mysql and a mail server. I experienced some problems during installing of the qmail toaster on one of the servers. The others ran fine. The problematic qmail install was on a machine with 8G of memory. I have never before installed qmail on a 8G box. So I have to take the time to play with the soft limits and adjust the right maximum allowed memory to be allocated. However thanks to God all went fine in general with the installation of the boxes. The Support in Neterra couldn't bring up one of the servers online. So they had connected the machine in a local network with the machine which was already up, so I accessed the server and thanksfully with God's grace and guidance I fixed the problematic machine to be viewable/accesible from the internet. I couldn't get it what exactly caused the problem but I suspect it was something related with the CentOS's firewall poicies. Actually the problematic machine missed the /etc/sysconfig/iptables file so I copied that file from the server which was already accesible from the net. I also changed a bit of other stuff on the server, though I couldn't specificly remember what else I changed. Eventually I have the new machine which is going to be a future host of different.bg online. The other machine is going to host another domain which is already online prize.bg . This days I feel quite okay, thanks to God almighty whose mercy towards me is immensly big! Glory be to you Oh God, Oh Holy of Holiest, Holy Trinity!

Recently I came up to an ugly problem. The HAN university where I study is filtering the 995 port therefore I could not login to gmail, via gmails POP3 SSLed connection. Thus I configured an rdist which is a tiny soft which makes lives easier when you have to set up a port forwarding. I configured my Debian Icedove to use the host where I had rdist running. Everything worked almost fine except an ugly message appeared warning me that I'm accepting certificate from a gmail host which is different from the host where Thunderbird is connecting. The message appearing was: "Domain Name Mismatch". I looked the net to find a solution also played a bit with Icedove itself. Eventually I came along a nice small thunderbird plugin which did the trick for me. The add-on is called "Remember Mismatch Domains" and when activated does add a field on the window with the warning offering a way to save the warning and thus preventing it to occur again

On Tuesday Zlati (A friend of mine introduced to me by Father Veliko), came to Arnhem. The plan was that he came on Tuesday here and afterwards in Wednesday morning the Trip to Amsterdam was going to happen. First we had settled that he will be in Arnhem in 12:00 o'clock. So Around 10:50 I walked down the way to the train station. I was on my way when Zlati ringed and told that he still haven't catched the train and he is not going to make it for 12:00, though he will be on Arnhem Central Station in 04:35 in the afternoon. I came back to home and on my way bought some apples as well as a oily sweet thing from the Turkish shop "Sultan" Around 3 I took my way to the city center again, on my way I had to leave Sali's laptop in his home. I had taken his laptop to re-install Windows and setup his Windows in Bulgarian as well as configure it to be able to watch Bulgarian TV channels online. In order to achieve that I used a proxy donated to me by Amridikon. Thanks Amri! To make Windows Vista Home Premium to Bulgarian I had to use a small proggie "Vista Change Language 1.0". I had to burn the program to a CD and boot into it and then use the downloaded language pack to change the vista text language to Bulgarian. I did so all went well, unfortunately after an upgrade the text in the menus did screw up. So I have to boot again in the Vista Change Language 1.0 boot CD and revert it back to Bulgarian. Then I had to disable Windows Vista updates in order to prevent the same language mess up to occur again. This was a little out of the topic, but I decided it's nice to have it on paper. So back to where I was .. I took Zlati from the train station, we went to Sali and he treated us with some kind of traditional turkish soup meal. The soup was quite nice btw. He was extremely happy that he could watch Bulgarian TV's online through the bg.gledai.tv website. I was glad to that God helped me and blessed me in succeeding in all the things I mentioned above. Afterwards we went with Zlati and Koko to Albertheijn picked up a beer and a couple of other things. Then I and Zlati went to my place where we used my notebook to research about places of Interest we would like to attend in Amsterdam. We went to bed around 2 o'clock at night. At the morning we went to the train station. I suggested that we go a little earlier because I thought, well it might be better to be earlier in the city for to have more time to walk and look it. We were on the train station 8:10 and had the intention to take the first train at 8:29, however God had other plans for that. It seemed that we have to wait and buy a ticket for after 9:00, or otherwise Zlati couldn't use his train card for my discount. He was quite irritated by the fact that I suggested that we went to the train station so early since he was quite sleepy in the morning because we went to bed so late. Anyways I got a coffee from the waiting-room coffee machine. And, eh the coffee there is expensive, be careful if you travel in the Netherlands by train. The coffee costed 1.50 per cappuchino, huh ... We catched a train in 9:29 and we were in the capital of Amsterdam in 10:40. I was so excited! Yes the trip worthed the price of 16.30 EUR (with the 40% discount). Amsterdam is a really nice city, especially considering it's architecture. And I saw such a big shops and so many things to choose from. The whole city is full of canals and boats are traveling through it. We went to music store, wow there was so much music in it. We entered a lot of Catholic Churches in one of the Catholic Churches there was an orthodox icon of St. Nickolas! So I made the sign of the cross and prayed the Saint to pray God for me the sinner. With our arrival right after we went out of the central station I saw a bookstore, so I proposed Zlati to enter. It seemed that was a protestant Christian bookstore. Even though a protestant one the people there at least were believing in our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. I had a small chat with one of the guys asking if they have Orthodox Bible, It seemed they haven't so I started telling him about the advantages of being Orthodox Christian. And I became orthodox after God gave me the faith and transformed my life. The bookstore had a free/coffee and tea. So each me and Zlati took a cappuchino. It was so nice God gave me a hot drink in the Early morning in Amsterdam. A lot of people are insane in that place, there was a lot of pod smokers on the street. On a lot of places the air had that typical pod stell. We saw a lot of Museums, we tried to use a citymap although in a lot of cases not really succesful. We so so many Churches, Madam Tusad's museum, as well as Anne Frank museum, the tulip museum. There was also sex, museums we saw on our way and even this freaks had gay museum. We saw some road building in progress where a couple of people were building a road on top of pillars, right above the water! The city is full of old buildings most of which originating from 16th century. The Architecture is really amazing. The parks and everything and the terraces had that typical European style which I've seen in movies showing people from the 18th or 19th century. We made a lot of pictures. Unfortunately I still haven't taken the pictures from Zlati. We entered into a shop which was selling buddhist, hindu and indian statues and souvenirs to warm a bit. We had a nice chat with the storekeeper, about religion and about my Orthodox faith in Our Lord Jesus! He mentioned that near around there is an Syrian Orthodox Church. So went to seek for it. After some rambling we found it but unfortunately it was already closed the time was quite late over 18:00, so it was quite normal to be closed. The style of the Church didn't really much differentiated from the rest of the Catholic Churches. Earlier we went into a Church whether they had that modern exposition, again we went their to warm ourselves. The Church inside was nice but the pictures, they was selling on the expo was really terrible, a lot of sado-mazo and perverted motives in the pictures ... I was saddened to see that they have desacrated a holy place. Well it's true that the catholics stepped aside from the orthodox faith some time ago but still they were believing Christians ... Though such an abomination really makes sence. I think they shouldn't allow such things to be. The good thing was that in the Church they even had made toilets and the drawings representing the way our Lord Jesus has walked on it's way to final execution by the jews, carrying his cross on the way to Golgotha. Around 18:30 we went to the street where the so famous prostites and drug addicts street was the so called "red lights". I couldn't believed my eyes, prostites staying behind windows half naked waiting for a customer to hire them for sex ... I have heard about that place but I really couldn't imagine it could legally exist. But no wonder there in Amsterdam this place existed. We walked in that section of the city for around hour. There were all kind of junkies people who looked really criminal, the prostitutes on the windows. Sex shops, sex video rooms, you name it .. all the disgusting stuff you could imagine. After this walk we went to the train station around 8:00 and took the train back to Arnhem. The whole day went quite flawless, God has heard our prayer to keep us from evil and give us safe journey. The whole trip was really relaxing for me! Praise the Lord for his great mercy towards me the sinner !